Sunday, November 28, 2010

Motivation... or lack thereof

Why can I not get motivated to exercise?  Seriously!  It's like every time I go to the gym and have a great work out, and look forward to going tomorrow... that when it is finally tomorrow, I totally lack the motivation to have a repeat performance.  Why?  Let me tell you!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010


Beautiful.  Adorable.  Happy.  Loving.  Cheeky.

All words to describe my kids during a photo shoot we took as a family a few weeks ago.   I couldn't even wait until tomorrow (a typical Wordless Wednesday, which I've never even done before.... so why start now, right?) to post these photos for the world to see.  

Are you ready for supreme cuteness?

And supreme silly loving cuteness...

And sassy goofy party time!

I love my girls!!!!!

Photo Credit:  Tracey Meyer Photography  (  714-985-1914

Monday, November 15, 2010


I started tracking my diet and exercise with an online site (  Wow, epic fail on my part!!!  Well, not that it's a fail that I use the site, but a fail that I have totally blown out my goals!  But maybe its because I never really established goals to begin with.  All my life, I have avoided goals because I really don't want to be reminded when I come in at 80% of them.  Anything short of 100% is failure, right?
Anyway, new goals are:
Food = 1,600 calories
Exercise = 30 minutes walking daily (I really need a dog!) and 30 minutes resistance training on the gym machines 4x week. 
I want to start doing sit-ups/crunches too.  However, each time I try, I end up throwing out my back within a few days.  Must start slow... 5 of them, then increase by 5 every three days or something like that.  I just get bored and forget to follow up by a week into a new routine!
I chose 1,600 calories a day because that's about the bottom level of the food I've consumed in the past week. 
11-9............... 1,640 calories, 2 hours of walking (yay for Disneyland!!!)
11-10............. 2,311 calories
11-11............. 1,927calories
11-12............. 1,441 calories
11-13............. 1,817 calories
11-14............. 1,622 calories
Of the most highly caloric food I've eaten, the homemade macadamia nut white chocolate chip cookies I *had* to buy from my kids' preschool (which thankfully are gone as of tonight) and tortilla chips and salsa are my evil evil evil snacks.  They represent 400-600 calories I don't need.  How rad would it be if I could keep my intake at 1,000 calories and actually exrcise every now and then!
So while I may have failed all over the place and back this week, at least I have idenitied the culprits that I didn't think mattered much in the grand scheme of things.  But, yeah, they do.
Gym tomorrow AM for SURE!  Then Disneyland for my 2 hours of walking.
Is there any way to hide this post??  Really, I sound pathetic.
Photo credit:   Google Images

Monday, November 8, 2010


Webster’s defines accountability as: the quality or state of being accountable; especially : an obligation or willingness to accept responsibility or to account for one's actions .

When you “diet,” do you tell everyone that you are on a diet? Does it bother you when people constantly ask how you are doing and if you are losing weight, especially when you are not? And does it bother you when people say things like, “Well, you shouldn’t have that on your diet, right?!” or “shouldn’t you go to the gym more than twice a month?”

Or do you diet silently, not telling anyone, in hopes that if you fail, no one will give you any grief about it. So that no one bothers you about the fact that you’ve been paying for a gym membership for over 4 months without actually having gone inside?

I used to be a quiet dieter, keeping it to myself so no one will be let in on my latest failed venture. I was never accountable to anyone. What did my cat care if I lost 10 pounds or gained 15?

Now. Now I am accountable to my family. I am putting them first this time, because I need to get into a zone on the obesity scale that isn’t screaming red. For them. Because I want to be here on this earth, able to participate, now and in the future.

I am accountable to myself. I didn’t realize how little I thought of myself, before. I didn’t really care if I succeeded. What difference did it make? Once you weigh this much, what’s 20 pounds either way, right? Now, I jumped into this diet, this lifestyle change, with both feet and I cannot look back.

I am accountable to everyone I let in on the secret. I told people that I am going to lose a lot of weight. Whether it takes me 9 months or 2 years, I will lose a significant amount of weight.

I am accountable to everyone who reads this blog. So accountable in fact, that I put a weight ticker on the right hand column of my blog! I am aiming to update the weight loss ticker once a week for sure, or twice a week if I am super successful!

I am accountable to about 5 million people, by my last count. I put my story on my blog, on the website of a company where I work, and on the air-waves at a radio station!! Who does that?! I told millions of listeners that I was losing weight and they can too.

So now I am accountable to everyone else’s weight loss plan, too! OK, not really. But I am accountable to those who did what I did, at the place I used – the oBand Surgery Center. And I want to be! I want to be there to support anyone following my lead. Because we’re in this together.

I’ve already been responsible for gaining an extra 200 pounds. I’d like to be responsible for losing it too. And losing YOUR extra 60 pounds. And HIS extra 120 pounds. And HER 80 pounds.

How can I support YOUR weight loss plans? I’m finally ready.


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Thursday, November 4, 2010

Week 8 thru 12 - Life as a Post-Op Bariatric Patient

Read me first, if you are new to my weight loss blog!
Week 1
Week 2
Week 3
Week 4
Week 5-7

Week 8 - 12
So as many of you know, October at my house is non-stop activity.  I had maybe 4 days where I could get to the gym if I wanted to... but had NO energy or nmotivation to do so.  I know, I know... some of you might be thinking "girlfriend has time to go to Disneyland 5 times that month, she couldn't bust her butt to work out a bit?  Gym's open til 10 ya know..."  Well, that's where "being human" comes into play.  Being human, I am prone to mistakes.  Mistakes such as "well, I suppose 1 piece 10 pieces of candy won't hurt" or "finally, a day of rest... I think I will!"  Mistakes like getting OUT of the habit of going to the gym frequently.  Mistakes like thinking that I should test my boundaries and eat as much as I can knowing the LapBand will stop me when I am full.  FAIL.   The LapBand is a tool, like Weight Watchers, let's say.  Weight Watchers gives you guidelines and rules and tools to use to help you lose weight.  But it's up to you to actually do the program correctly.  Same with the Lap Band.  You CAN fail if you put your mind to it.  You can overeat and stretch out the top of your stomach like you willingly did to the bottom of your stomach.  You can eat ice cream and consider that a liquid, like water, therefore you are still hungry for real food.  You can not exercise and watch your weight loss go from 20 pounds lost per month to maybe 5 pounds per month.

So, imagine my whole month - 5 weeks of not going to the gym, eating chocolate and halloween candy, and going to how many birthday parties with cake, and even throwing one of my own, complete with ME cooking a cake, cupcakes, cream cheese dips, artichoke dips, chips and dips... oh my!  What did that do to me?  Especially since I did NOT get a band tightening during week 10 like I probably should have.  The doc was on the fence... he would have tightened it if I asked, but I was having a problem keeping foods down (turns out it was my chewing issue, not necessarily what I was eating because it was all good healthy stuff) so I elected to go without the tightening.  Besides, I knew that I was having a party in 48 hours and the first 48 hours after a tightening is rather restricting .... liquids only!

So after almost a month of not seeing the inside of the gym, I went yesterday for a weigh-in.  Well the great news is that I hit my post-partum weight low from Fall of 2006.  I'm actually rather excited about it because my friends all commented that I looked great after the baby weight fell off because I had essentially dropped 105 pounds (60 of me, 45 of baby even though I gained those 45 during losing the 60... it's weird math, sorry)!  Anyway, now at the end of 12 weeks post-op, it's a total of 35 pounds lost but since my last blog post in mid-september, meaning I lost those 7 pounds in September after my tighening, then stayed flat for October.  I'm excited because even after all the crap I ate, I didn't gain anything!  Averaging the 35 pounds over the 12 weeks, that's 3 pounds a week, which is pretty awesome for a diet and/or lifestyle change, right?!

I'm still so happy my "tool" (aka LapBand from the oBand Surgery Center) is still working for me regardless of whether or not I help it work or follow the rules.  I'm going to "work it" in November and lose 10 pounds.  Really!  I'm going to, darn it!  I'm also going to start blogging my diet.  It will hold me accountable for my food consumption.  I don't want to have to admit eating a bag of chips and cheese dip!!  But I'll start tomorrow. 

photo credit:  google images